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Sometimes, I feel so upset. I usually ask a question in my mind. Why do I always have to face the bad thing? Do I make something bad to them? So, the love that I pay to my family will lessen and have some suppositionsas to them as time goes by. Althoug I really do not want to see the change.

If I were not alive, the situation would be better. If I did not belong "your" home, they could have a better life. I really don't like to do the thing that most people hate or dislike. But, The worst thing is that they always do that to me.

I have to admit that my EQ is not good. I always can't handal my emotion, and even have moodiness. As a result, the bad thing will become the worst thing. And, the thing I hate most is they always ask me to do things without appriciation. They take it for granted. 

Most of time, fair and unfair are my point of me. Whenever I meet the unfair things, I can't endure. Even though they say that the words are not the meanings. And I can't put up with that they don't have any regrets to me after they break my heart.

In the short, I hope that I will become a person who always can hide her real feelings and show the good side. After all, people can't change everyone, but we can change ourselves.

Where is my mr. right

Who is my mr. right

sometimes

Oh

so boring

I need someone play with me

for dears

I am so sorry

but

this is too much

so many days

stop your cursing

       Today, I realized a truth that make me so sad and disapoint.
To them, I am a bad and irresponsible person from first to last.
Even though I have got along with them for a year at least.
No one know the real situation.Why they can discuss the thing so
sure? Even giving me a chance to explain, they all think it is not necesarry.

      Forgive it!! From now, their things is not my business.
If I have a opportunity torestart, I will not enter the place that does not suit me.
The place is not my love .

      Considering again and again, I sent mails to two people at 5:30.
Because they should know the truth, especially one of them.
Although I think time will prove everything, I still should hand over my duties.
Now I finish the work, as a result, I have no regret about all the things about them.
Hope all things can be over at this second. Through the thing happened to me.
I do not want to have any association with them. I give up the friendship.

10/08

      Today, I went to Wells that is a cram school. Because, I want to master pronounce and get licenses. Although I will pay the expense by myself, the tuition is so expensive that I lack assurance to ask my parents. Because, I think that my parents are worry about my learning attitude. As a result, I must to show the determination that I will insist on it. Why do I choose wells? The reason is that the environment is best after I compare with the others cram schools. They supply many things, concluding lifelong learning, three kinds of computer courses learning…etc.